It has helped me to lower my stress and anxiety about the work and the unknowns of the future. Whenever I start to feel overwhelmed about what mayย happen, I can bring my focus back to my breathing and notice how I’m feeling in my body now.
It allows me to know on a very fundamental level that whatever I’m worried about isn’t actually happening right now. Even if it lasts only for a split second, it calms my mind.
I started making new drawings to express my appreciation and to encourage myself to continue with the practice.
Though it was not my intention to create a series at first, more ideas kept popping in my head. And creating these drawings is sort of meditative, too!
Live like you have everything you need.May all beings be happy, peaceful, and liberated.I’d rather be here and now.
Last year I had a lot of fun making a wall calendar, and perhaps this could be my new calendar design for 2017?
I personally would like to have this hanging on the wall to remind me to breathe ๐ Wouldn’t you?
p.s. You can follow me on Instagram to see more works from my sketchbook!
Happiness is meditation. Many challenging things going on in my life right now (all good things) and needing to feel centered. Good to have my meditation practice back in my life again… ๐
I’m naturally a curious person, and last year, I somehow felt I was ready.ย What is the worst that could happen?ย Even if it sucked, it would be over in 10 days.ย So there I was without any big expectations, my clothes and sleeping gear in a little suitcase, I rolled up in my 2000 Honda Civic at the meditation center in the rural Washington.
I had done some meditation practice in the past but never seriously in any way.ย We checked in, moved in to the dorm room, met my room mate, and had a delicious dinner with the fellow students on the first night (and we could still talk & socialize at this time).
Our practice began on the first night.ย We were assigned our sitting spot in a big hall.ย The meditation practice was lead by the video and audio recordings of Mr. Goenka, and teachers were also available for questions.ย From this point on, you’re to focus on your practice and have no interaction with your fellow students.ย No talking, miming, writing, eye-contact or body language.ย You’re only allowed to speak to the manager and the teacher if you need assistance with your accommodation or the practice.
I know this is kind of overwhelming, but as an introvert, I was also looking forward to not talking to anyone for 10 days.ย No need to strike up a conversation with strangers and make small talks.ย How relaxing!
During the 10-day retreat, your daily routine is pretty structured.ย Your day starts at 4am, and meditate for a couple of hours.ย Breakfast is served at 6:30am.ย Then you meditate for a few more hours.ย Lunch at 11am, and you will have a little break to rest and/or walk along the path in the property.ย You meditate again for the afternoon, and instead of dinner, we have tea with honey and milk and some fruits at 5pm.ย ย After dinner, we have more meditation and discourse/lecture until 9pm. Then lights out at 10pm.
I was a little worried about the “no dinner” situation as I LOVE to eat.ใThough it was hard in the beginning, I got used to it eventually.ย Because we just sit for the most part of the day, I didn’t get super hungry anyway.ย And their food was really great too.ย Healthy, wholesome vegetarian meals were prepared by awesome volunteers every day.ย This is what a typical day’s meals look like.
So, during the retreat you would sit and meditate for about 10 hours per day either as a group or individually in your room.ย Each day, we’re given instructions and guidance to further our practice.ย In the evening, we’ll watch the video-recording of Mr. Goenka’s lecture, and I looked forward to that every day.ย He is quite a character, and I felt like he knew what I was thinking a lot of the time.ย Questions like, “Why am I here?”ย “Why are we doing this silly nose breathing thing day in and day out??” were answered during the video lecture.ย The program was well structured so you are able to build on a skill and really learn to sharpen your senses.
Sitting for a long time was definitely not easy, but by far the hardest part for me was shutting off my mind.ย As Mr. Goenka puts it, your mind is like a wild monkey going from a branch to branch grabbing bananas and leaves.ย It’s also like browsing on the internet – you click on a link and then next, and next, and next….ย it’s a never ending rabbit hole, I tell ya!ย Your meditation practice would help tame your wild monkey mind, he said.ย REALLY?ย Because it was really, really hard to shut off my mind for even a second.
Many thoughts came up while sitting.ย A lot of them were really intense thoughts of anger and fear. ย And I felt worried about having those thoughts (i.e.”Wow, am I ok?”) and continued to let go of those thoughts.ย Because I was feeling such intense feelings during the meditation, I had nightmares almost every night and woke up scared in the middle of the night.ย I understand why students are asked to stay for the entire 10 days.ย I would’ve been kind of a mess if I left without having some kind of a closure for those intense feelings I felt.
There is so much to say about the practice, and I think you need to go through it to really experience the impact of it yourself (or you may find it doesn’t have a lot of impact for you).ย What the practice taught me is to realize nothing is permanent,ย pain or pleasure, and holding on to them only creates suffering for you.ย It was really powerful for me to realize that only I can make my problems go away.ย It is such a simple message, and it was so empowering and deeply healing for me.
At the end, we learned the Metta Meditation, a.k.a. “Loving Kindness Meditation,” which may be my favorite part.ย In this meditation, you will learn to send all kinds of positive, loving, warm thoughts to yourself, your loved ones, your enemies, and all beings in the universe.ย What could be better??
After returning from the retreat, I was following their recommended daily practice of 1 hour meditation in the morning and 1 hour in the evening.ย It was a really hard commitmentย to keep, and eventually I stopped when my life got kind of crazy last summer.ย Despite that, I’m still able to go to that quiet place in my mind when things are stressful or hard even for a short time.ย It was truly a life-changing experience for me, and I would recommend to anyone who is interested!ย You can find more information about the Vipassana retreat here.
When I first heard of the sensory deprivation float a few years ago, I didn’t really get it.ย You float in the water with no sound, light, or gravity…ย It sounded kind of dark and scary.
Since then I’ve been trying different meditation and relaxation techniques to manage stress.ย A couple of months ago, I came across a coupon for Urban Float in Seattle.ย I decided to have my first float on my birthday!ย As one of my friends put it, I was going to “spend my birthday in a fake womb.”
I made my appointment for the 50-mins float session.ย ย When I checked in, the nice woman there gave me a quick tour of the room & the pod.ย It was comforting to know that there is an emergency button inside of the pod…
At this facility, you have an option of floating in a pod that looks kind of like a giant, sci-fi kidney bean (pictured below).ย The water is kept at body temperature, and it is a highly saturated epsom salt and water, so your body floats even though the water is less than knee deep.ย Once you’re in, you can close the top all the way, or leave it cracked, depending on your comfort level.ย You wear ear plugs so the water won’t get in your ears.ย This also helps shut out any noise while you float.
After showering, I wasted no time getting my floatin’ on.ย I got in the pod, closed the top all the way and lied down in the water.ย It was a strange feeling to just “float.”ย Normally, when I’m in the pool or the ocean, I’m trying to swim or move about in the water.ย But here, you just lie still.
It took me a few minutes to relax my head.ย I’m so used to laying on something solid, something to support my head, so letting my neck to relax in the water was hard.ย I was afraid my face is going to be under the water.
I was eventually able to let the water support my head, and my eyes, nose and mouth stayed above water.ย They play a soothing music for the first and last 5 minutes of your session.
I tried not to move my body once I got the hang of floating.ย For some reason I was drifting inside of the pod๏ผEventually, I stopped drifting.ย But whenever I focused on not moving my legs or arms, it started twitching!ย Because you don’t have other sensations, I became very sensitive to every little move I made in the water.ย I felt the water around me rippling with the subtlest of moves.
I thought I read on their website that the light inside of the pod would automatically turn off with the music, so I just floated there for several minutes.ย I opened my eyes to see if the light had turned off, but it was on…ย Actually, it stayed on for the entire time.ย I could’ve turned it off manually, but at that point, I didn’t feel like getting up to push the button, so I let it go.ย I could also hear sounds from outside as the facility is right by a busy street.
I got out of the pod, showered, and got dressed.ย I felt super relaxed and a little groggy afterwards.ย I drank lots of water and cooled off before heading out to the busy outside world!
My very first floating experience didn’t exactly knock my socks off, but it really helped me feel relaxed and detoxed.ย I would be very curious to see how I would feel if I had an actual “sensory deprivation” experience, you know, without any light or sounds.ย I’m sure it affects different people differently.ย If you ever wonder what it’s like, try it and see how you feel!
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